My Saturn return roughly eight years ago was certainly chaotic. My ten year relationship had broken down, I was grieving my journey through infertility, I had fallen in love with a girl (who became my gorgeous partner) and came out to myself and my world.
I was navigating all the new relationship hurdles plus questioning my identity and on top of all of that I started a whole new role at work; creating and leading a new team which caused the dismantling of other much loved roles in the organisation. My life was honestly filled with so much indecision and uncertainty.
The strain of my personal world and working as a leader in a corporate environment was taking a bigger toll on my body than I realised. From the outside, I did my best to appear confident and look after myself as best I could. But on the inside, I couldn’t seem to shake how run down and depleted I felt. I was doing my best to stay true to my values, however something was missing.
I was open to doing all of the things that I knew were good for me (I was in a health field after all and I am a continuous seeker of information and knowledge - Sagittarius rising - so I thought I knew my stuff!), but I wasn’t at all connected to the reality of how this subtle yet compounding stress was impacting my body and my nervous system. I was too busy trying to intellectualise what I was feeling - mentally trying to solve it whilst at the same time pushing through - that I couldn’t see the severity of the incremental ways I was slowly taxing myself.
I knew how to keep myself going, but I didn’t know how to truly protect my feminine essence in this space.
I knew what the body needed to be well, but I didn’t yet know how to truly connect with MY body.
I had come to accept the one-size-fits-all approach to wellness, yet I hadn’t come to accept that I (or anyone really) ever operate as a one-size-fits-all human.
I would come home crying night after night, and yet I kept on going, because I thought I could fix it. I continued to try everything - I took stress leave, got counselling, engaged a kick arse naturopath, had brilliant cosmic osteopathy, had aligned acupuncture, educated myself with every health podcast out there, I communicated my struggles to my team, I changed work environments and found a safer place to be at my best, but it was all too late. My system shut down.
And I never want ‘work’ to do that to anybody, like it did to me. Because at the end of the day, it’s ‘just work’, and for me, my whole life suffered.
I was diagnosed with a nervous system disorder and started getting vestibular migraines with persistent, debilitating symptoms. I’d get 3-4 migraines a week and experience massive numbness and dizziness, being unable to drive, work, exercise or sleep for significant periods of time. Even the tools I used to rely on to ‘get me through’ like meditation or yoga suddenly became unavailable to me, and I found myself seeing neurologists, trying every alternative health approach I could find and of course, eventually leaving behind a corporate career that I loved all together in July 2021. I was given no other option but to meet my body where it was at after 8 years of slowly building chronic stress, and learn a whole new way to actually feel what I was feeling.
I had to surrender and learn to trust my body again and trust the process.
I had to learn the somatic tools that would slowly and subtly help me integrate back into my body and truly listen to it.
I had to move through countless layers of self-acceptance and start embodying my own energy and my own way of operating in the world.
Which, all in all, has led me here. To not only supporting other heart-centred, feminine essence leaders as an energy guide to lead from their own unique energy, but also to show you how it’s your most valuable asset, in both work and life.
Some other things about me you should probably know..
I’m a Leo sun (oh, did I mention that already?) so I’m full of heart, I’m bold in my beliefs and I will be the first to challenge you to a dance off when given the chance. Also, I make no apologies for the next time you find me staring at myself in zoom calls!
My Sagittarius rising (with heaps of Sagittarius placements in my chart) means I’m constantly learning in the world and one of my super powers is translating knowledge into wisdom. The best teacher....is the life long student and that’s me. With my Sagittarius spark you will always find me living in the moment, exploring life endlessly and seeking the broader meaning of this brilliant life.
I have learned that I am at my best when I take intuitive action (Mars in Cancer) and I balance the needs of my body with my hearts desires and my very strong mind (Grand Trine in Air over here with an Aquarius Moon). I love it when I hit the sweet spot of this combo, because its then that I can offer my very best, my genius from a place of complete overflow. It is then that I get completely lit up by my strong fire elements and have all the passion, heart and motivation and energy to create something truly wonderful in this world.
And if you haven’t figured it out yet, I’m head over heels for astrology and I can’t help but weave it into every conversation, because it is without a doubt one of the most liberating tools that helped me find and own my own unique energies. And that’s everything I could wish for you too!
Credentials
Occupational Therapist, Neurolinguistics Programming (NLP) certified master practitioner and coach, Integrative Health Practitioner (in training), Various Astrology Trainings including Medical Astrology (…in endless lifetime training), Reiki Level 1, Values Pendulum Consultant, Strategist and 12+ years as a Corporate Heart led Leader.